midwife yesterday. she pinched an armful of blood, young one, needs more practice with a needle. it still hurty.

she took my blood pressure and it even lower than last time. all good.

and my pee was fine apparently.

but when she measured my tummy i was "large for dates". at 24 weeks i was 24cm which strikes me as so coincidental that some arbitrary measurement of time matches up with another made up measurement. anyways you're supposed to be around the same amount of cm as week give or take 2cm. at 25 weeks i was 26cm but at 28 weeks i am 32cm.

liccle bit big.

so she arranged for a scan to check over massive baby. today at 2.00. i a little worried. there are a couple of things it could be. firstly it could just be a big fat baby. which is not that great cause it will be hard to give birth too. secondly she could have measured wrong. fingers crossed.

it could be a couple of nasties but they fairly rare so i doubt it.

unfortunately the most likely thing is diabetes. you can get it while you pregnant and something about the insulin levels fucks with the babies growth hormones.

i a sugar addict. diabetes would be hard for me.

fat baby is not as bad as small baby tho. i not too worried about it all but obv would prefer for everything to be normal.

and my dad gets cremated today. i had my last scan the day after he died and now i get an extra scan on the day he cremated. perfect timing. everything better be ok in my belly or i gonna have a really crappy day today.

feeling a bit sniffly. don't want to burst into tears tho. so bored of crying.

bah, fat baies and dead toasted dads. you can tell it's a tuesday. I've never liked tuesdays.